:)

"At some point you have to realize that he doesn’t care, and maybe you’re missing out on someone who does."

yes, im too busy thinking of someone that doesnt even think of me,
til i missed out someone who really cares about me,

from the girl you failed to keep.

 i should have thanked God a real much, because finally i opened my eyes, and He showed me the truth by His magical way.
i wouldnt believe you would do this to me. ya, to me! the girl thats been on your side faithfully for almost 3 years! and you hurt me like you never loved me.

im tired of being cheated on, for hearing all those lies, for being dumped, for trying to fix everything myself while all you could do is having fun with your new life.
i just dont get it, how could a 1000 days together can easily replaced by something that you have just met.
dont you care about my feelings? dont you??

i fully understand that i cant ever be the girl you want to be with. the one who can go out from midnight till the sun come out just to have your so called fun, get drunk, dance til you lose yourself. i cant.
i know im lame, im boring and i aint cool,
but it doesnt mean that you can do this to me. nobody deserves to be cheated on, to be fooled.
i stayed home, couldnt sleep til you got home, and youre there, having fun, got drunk, chilling and having fun with a girl that i never knew before. which in the end i finally found out that you liked her.
DIDN'T YOU THINK ABOUT ME?!

hh so this is the end of the story, and hope it will also be a new beginning of another story with another cast.
i decided to cut off every connection with you. i wont see you anymore, and you cant see me either.
im not gonna think about you anymore, and im not gonna give a damn about you anymore
lets just be strangers like we havent known each other beafore.
ive been trying to forgive you but it turns out that i cant. You're just dissapointing. 
so forgive me for being so unforgiving.

sometimes i miss you. a lot. but then i think about what a jerk you are, and what youve done to me, and the feeling goes away 
and at some point, i have to forget those people that have forgotten me. :)
so good luck and take care.


from the girl you failed to keep,
T.

The one that gets hurt isn't you. It's me.

I wish i never liked you.
I wish i didnt waste all those times talking to you or thinking about you.
I wish i didnt worry or cared about all the times you ignored me.
I wish i never got excited everytime you made me feel special.
I wish i never believed every word you said.
I wish i never got my hopes high for you.
And i wish i never kept trying and trying, knowing i would just go through the same thing.

Because in the end, the one that gets hurt isnt you. Its me.

favorite words from my favorite local authors

"Kamu ngerasa gak sih, kalo kita tu kaya 2 orang yang udah tau gak cocok tapi tetep di cocok-cocokin karna takut sendiri lagi"
― Raditya Dika

"Apa yang harus kita lakukan pada kenangan yang memaksa kita untuk terus diingat?"
― Raditya Dika

“Banyak hal yang tak bisa dipaksakan, tapi layak diberi kesempatan.”
― Dewi Lestari

hmm.

"Orang yang bilang, ‘kamu terlalu baik buat aku’, sesungguhnya berarti: ‘Gue males cari alasan lain agar lo gak sakit hati."
-Raditya Dika



:'(

(Lanjutan..) Phuket Thai '12

nah setelah beberapa hari melawan males buat ngelanjutin crita kmrn fuuuuuu.... here it is!

Day 4
Phuket City Tour & Phuket Fantasea

Today, a 10 am, miss ladda and her driver picked us up again to go over the Phuket land to have some tour, and she would be our guide.
We gt into the van and started the journey! and here it was..
first, we went to see some of the popular pretty beaches at Phuket. FYI... We stayed at Patong Beach but awfully we didnt even have spare time to play at Patong, hmmm, but its okay cuz i find Patong is too crowded and too noisy since theres a lot of caffe and pub near the beach.
The first beach we visited was, Kata Beach. it was much quiet and clean than Patong. but the wave is quite high that time. but i pretty enjoyed the white sand and blueish atmosphere!
we continued the journey and visited Karon Beach, but since it was too hot outside, i decided not to go down to the beach. it was also clean and pretty, also much private than Patong.
finished with those beaches, we went to Karon Viewpoint to take some snaps from the hills. the landscape is veeeewwy pwettyyyy!!
after that, we went to the elephant's place but i cant remember the name :s
since that i was a huge fan of elephant and most of mamal's animals...... I LOOOOVE being there!! i enjoyed 45 minutes riding on an elephant! i even tried to command the elphant myself :D
after finished with the elephant thingy, we got lunch in some place with the beach point. all of the food mostly taste good! but its a bit pricey for Thai's cuisine.
Ehrhm. continue to the spiritual places like Budhist Temple since budhist is the majority religion in there. it was beautiful but it has different kind of architecture with the buddhist temple in Indonesia. in here we used rocks as the main material, but there, its more like modern but still has traditional touch.
then after that, went to the Bee Farm, but its just boring in there, so lets just skip this part.
after visiting Bee Farm, we was going to Wang Talang Jewelery. my mum is the happiest person on earth when she entered this place. the jewels are much cheaper than here in Jakarta. but it still expensive tho for me -.- spending like 3 hours in this place just for the sake of my mum's happiness, we finally succeed to push my mum to the exit gate. gotta do it before all those credit cards reach the limits -____-
after wang talang, the last place we visited was souvenirs place. lalala not pretty much interesting too hehee so lets just skip! :3
 Back to Hoteeeel..
then miss ladda would pick us up again for Phuket Fantasea Show! yeaaahpeaay!
first we go on dinner at the restaurant which is buffet dinner. but the price is pretty high for each person. and skip to the show....
i love to see the show! i was wondering about how stupid Indonesia's governers are for the whole show. since that we have so many cultures and traditions but we never make such an effort to show the world about what weve got. ckckc.
its amazing. really. you'll be amazed by how the technology meets traditions. heheheh you gotta see this if youre planning to go to Phuket :3