no perfect father

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"there are no perfect fathers.. but a father will always love perfectly"

Insecure.

Halo! Hola! Hello!
Mayan nih uda lama gak posting, abisan gak ada yg menarik di idup gue. Biasa-biasa aja. Happy kagak, sedih juga kaga, jd bingung mau posting apa kmrn2. Tapi tapi tapi... Gue merasa agak aneh dan random nihya. Gue lagi sering banget ngerasa insecure gitudeh gakbanget.
Gue kaya ngerasa takut & ga aman, tapi gue juga gatau apa yang mesti ditakutin sebenernya. Gila kan? Congratulation deh gue, mungkin otak gue udah gasruk.
Hmm. Atau mungkin nih ya, karena idup gue lagi enak-enak aja ga ada hambatan belakangan ini, terus gue malah jadi takut sendiri. Takut kalo sewaktu-waktu semuanya rusak, ancur, kandas in a sudden.gitu kali ya?
Belakangan kan sering tuh ya gue ngepost ttg gue takut bokap-nyokap gue makin tua blablabla gtu. Nah skrg beda nyet!
Gue malu sebenernya ngasih taunya. Soalnya ini gak bgt. Sumpah. Tau bangetdeh ini pasti bakal diketawain -_- hem. Jadi sebenernya kawan-kawan, gue ini lagi takut ditinggal laki gueee!! Huaaaaaa aneh bgt kan? Yah freak lu Pang..
Ehserius tapi. Beneran nih. Duh gimana ya jelasinnya? Hubungan gue sih lagi ga renggang, lagi ga se-hot Jupe sama Gaston juga sih. Tapi auk deh kenapa bisa tiba-tiba takut sendiri. Emang freak kali gue. Ck.
Gue takut ditinggalin abisnya. Takut nanti nya ada cewe lain yang lebih menarik hatinya atau gimana gitu. Atau malah dia jenuh bosen sama gue. Atau dia ga kuat sama tingkah annoying gue. Atau apadah gitu. Yah jangan sampe deh, beneran gak tau bakal gimana jadinya kalo kejadian beneran. Ga siap sama sekali huhu ya Allah jangan ya, ya Allah, daripada saya ga kuat terus mati diem-diem bunuh diri pake tali? AMIT-AMIT!
Eh tengsin abis ampe orang nya baca blog gue -_- pasti gede kepala najong.
Jadi harus apa ini gueee??? Gausah dipikirin? Palelu! Lu kira gampang kali kaga mikirinnya. Hem tapi sebenernya sih simpel ya, gue cuma harus ngurangin sifat jelek gue biar dia makin cita (hoek!), terus gue harus bae-bae ga banyak tingkah, terus kalo ntar ada cewe lain? Ya kalo itusih diluar kendali gue ya, mungkin kalopun ntar (amit-amit) sampe ada, berarti ya emang bukan buat gue atau belom waktunya kali (sok abis) dan kalo kalo ada, siap-siap aja lu Sa ketimpuk batako!!!!! HEHEHE.

And to you who supposed to read this, please notice this.
I may not a Type of girl you want to be with, i know.
I may not a girl who talks sweet and lovely to you, i absolutely know.
I may not a type of girl who has a perfect brain beauty and behavior, i know it well.
But one thing i absolutely sure about,
I deeply in love with you, and i love every single thing about you, im so unconditionally in love with you in the name of God sumpah deh

Im so afraid. If one day when you wake up, you realize that im not even worth it. If one day your eyes see someone much better than me? If one day you think that you cant stand beside me anymore.
One thing, dont leave..
Because you absolutely have no idea, how much you mean to me.

Too fast to think about marriage, too fast to think about our future, too fast to think about having kids.. I know.
But this feeling also grow fast. And i can help my self to not to think about that, with you.
Yes you. The one who supposed reading this.

I love you.

What's The Point of Living?

People, I wanna ask you guys.

Have you ever felt like you're not actually living? Like you are in a living body but your mind is actually not. And you keep on asking your own life, what's the point of living?

Me. I'm actually at that point now.

I just don't know if everything's real. Or not.

If you think I'm losing my faith and need some purpose of life, then your thoughts are probably wrong.

Because I have my purpose of life, and so I have faith and believe in God.

My purpose of life is married with the one I truly love, then having kids, then loving and being loved by my own lil family. Also I wanna make my own Notariat Office, just like my mum. I have many goals to be achieved.

But back again, I wonder.... It's actually not living. It's just making myself following the circumtances that everybody does. Right?

So are we really living? Are we really built to be living? Or just to follow other people that already lived before? And just repeating the same circumstances?

Then growing old? And waiting for death to come? And having "siksa kubur" in return? Then going to whether it's heaven or hell? As predictable as that?

Bah... okey that's my strange thoughts hueheheh.

One last sentence to end it with,

"Everyman dies, but not everyman really lives."

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Scared of The Death

what comes thru my mind lately that bothered me is about
FEAR OF THE DEATH OF THE LOVED ONES.
I do afraid of death. I do. Who doesn't?
 Because I'm not even halfway done to be a good person, not even close to. That's why i think i haven't even ready yet to it. Hii, astagfirullah deh bayanginnya aja ga sanggup x_x
But what makes it even harder is the death of ur loved ones, it can be mum, papa, siblings, grandma/pa, best friend, lover or anybody that i loved. Indeed.
Death comes to everybody in this world. Anybody without exceptions. It will happen, sooner or later. You just don't know when. when it's gonna happen.
When I think about it, especially when it comes to my beloved mum and darling papa, I can't help myself not to cry. My eyes suddenly teary every time it comes thru my mind. For God sake, I don't want it to happen. I just don't want to sumpeeh :-(
I can't even imagine it, what would it be if they would all disappear? Who else to stand with me? Who else to stand behind my back to back me up? Who else to calm me down when I'm down down down to the ground? Naaaaaa :(
I can easily depend and wish everything to everyone around me that i trust, then when it comes to 'how would it be without them?' Maybe I'd rather let myself disappear and eaten by this motha Earth. Swear! Too hard to imagine. Too painful to feel.
Blah!
Enough I can't continue writing this emotional post wakaka.
I hope I can put these scary thoughts away, ogah gua mikirin beginian mulu. Bisa gila!
Fuu, may the power of mind lead thru o:)

PS: the closer you are to death, the more you feel you are alive.
Have a blessing day. may God always be with u all! ^^,
T.

Little Spill

Instill love to the nation
Raise patriotism
And national defense

HA!

1. What color is your toothbrush?
blue

2. Name one person who made you smile today?
Ganesha

3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
was swimming with Gee

4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago?
having my mouth full of cereals

5. What is your favorite candy?
m&m's

6. Have you ever been to a strip club?
nope

7. What is the last thing you said aloud?
EMBAAK AMBILIN AIR

8. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
cookies n cream

9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
mineral water

10. Do you likeyour wallet?
i should've replaced it with the new one

11. What was the last thing you ate?
koko crunch

12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
a lot of

13. The last sporting event you watched?
swimming

14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
butter/salty

15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to?
daddy

16. Ever go camping?
yea i like ittttt

17. Do you take vitamins daily?
as the doctor told me to do so

18. Do you go to church every Sunday?
i'm moslem

19. Do you have a tan?
nooooo


20. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?
i prefer pizza for sure

21. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
nope i drink it from the bottle itself

22. What did your last text message say?
ada cerita kocak gak?

23. What are you doing tomorrow?
lying on bed all day

24. WHERE IS 24?
right after 23 (?)

25. Look to your left, what do you see?
lcd tv

26. What color & make is your watch?
i dont even have one ;p

27. What do you think of when you hear the word Australia?
new zealand


28. What is your birthstone?
idk.

29. Do you go in at a fast food place or just hit the drive thru?
up to my mood

30. What is your favourite number?
4 and 8

31. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
ganesha

32. Any plans today?
a lot of

33. How many states/provinces/countries have you lived in?
2 provinces

34. Biggest annoyance right now?
my second little sister

35. Last song listened to?
Time To Go - The Maine

36. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
errrrr i can't


37. Do you have a maid service clean your house?
three living maids

38. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
flats&sneakers

39. Are you jealous of anyone?
yepppp

40. Is anyone jealous of you?
mayyyybe

41. Do you love anyone?
yia!

42. Do any of your friends have children?
yes

43. What do you usually do during the day?
wondering and day dreaming

44. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
yes

45. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
yep

46. What color is your car?
pure white 

47. Do you like cats?
i have 7 of them at home

48. Are you thinking about someone right now?
yep

49. Have you ever been to Six Flags?
no

50. How did you get your worst scars?
when i got abused by somebody

Beliefs.. My Nation.. Disappointing..

Sedikit yang mau gue sampein di postingan kali ini. Bukan lagi masalah cinta-cintaan yang belakangan ini sering gue post di blog ini. Kali ini agak lebih serius sih, masalah kekecewaan gue terhadap Negara ini yang menurut gue udah gagal dalam melindungi hak-hak rakyatnya. Seriously.. Ya, gue emang ga tau banyak tentang hukum, gue juga masih dalam proses pembelajaran hukum, bisa dibilang mungkin ilmu hukum dan politik yang gue punya skrg cuma sebates jengkal. Tapi dengan kedangkalan ilmu itulah gue sadar, betapa lemahnya sistem hukum dan pemerintahan kita saat ini.

Miris kayanya kalo denger slogan "Unity in Diversity" alias Bhineka Tunggal Ika. Sekarang perbedaan itu sendiri yang jadi boomerang buat Negara ini. Perbedaan yang harusnya jadi uniqueness tersendiri dan khas buat Negeri yang katanya kaya akan sumber daya ini.
Miris kayanya liat Demokrasi, kebebasan berpendapat dan kebebasan berekspresi dijadiin landasan buat bertindak sewenang-wenang. Even though a democratic country upholds freedom of expression, we must not give any space and tolerance to public speech to carry out violence or murder on anyone.
Miris kayanya liat beberapa oknum mengatas namakan kepentingan agama ataupun aturan agama untuk melakukan aksi anarkis, perusakan besar-besaran terhadap kepentingan umum, dan pelanggaran hak asasi manusia dengan cara apapun.

Bahkan perbedaan agama jadi ujung tombak yang sangat berpotensi buat memecah belah bangsa ini. Ini yang harusnya di tekankan, bukankah seluruh masyarakat di Negeri ini punya hak dan kebebasan untuk memeluk agamanya masing-masing? Bukankah mereka juga memiliki hak dan kebebasan dalam menjalankan ibadah sesuai kepercayaannya? Pertanyaan saya, jika benar semua orang memiliki kebebasan untuk memilih dan memeluk agamanya masing-masing, kenapa belakangan ini kerap kali ditemukan diskriminasi antar umat beragama? Kenapa? Bukankah setiap orang bebas memeluk agamanya masing-masing? Dimana peran pemerintah untuk melindungi hak-hak warga negaranya? The main obligation of the government is to protect its citizens regardless of their religion, right?

Masih lekat dipikiran saya, pada bulan September 2010 lalu, pernah terjadi pertikaian antara organisasi-masyarakat-berkalung-sorban dengan jemaat gereja HKBP. Sampai terjadi penusukan terhadap Penetua Sihombing dan pendeta Luspida Simanjuntak yang masing-masing adalah pengurus dan pendeta Gereja HKBP. What-the-fuck! Buat apa sih ngerusak acara ibadah umat lain? Apapun alesannya, yang namanya merusak acara ibadah umat lain apalagi disertai penusukan terhadap pemuka agama dan terror terhadap jemaahnya itu merupakan corengan besar buat Negara yang katanya menjunjung tinggi hak asasi manusia ini.

Baru-baru ini. Banyak gue liat kasus serupa di tv, tentang bagaimana aliran Ahmadiyah dikecam habis-habisan. Yang paling miris buat gue, adalah yang paling baru kejadian di Pandeglang, Banten. Tidak berpendidikan, itu pendapat saya mengenai 'mereka' setelah saya liat di televisi mereka mengejar, menganiaya serta membakar mobil dan rumah anggota Ahmadiyah. Tiga orang anggota Ahmadiyah meninggal dunia akibat penganiayaan tersebut. Gue coba cari tau lebih lanjut lagi tentang mereka (korban Ahmadiyah), lalu kebetulan gue nemu salah satu account twitter dari salah satu korban yang selamat.

Ternyata begini kronologisnya, saya kutip dari account twitter milik Mubarik Ahmad (@Mubarik63)
"kami tiba di Cikeusik sekitar jam 7 pagi,kami rebahan di suguhin sarapan, tiba2 sekitar jam 9/stengah 10 ada polisi,awalnya polisi lumayan banyak tapi gtau knp. mreka/Polisi pergi lagi, Sekitar jam 10 tiba2 masa datang langsung menyerang,tidak ada dialog atw mediasi. mereka langsung mengacungkan senjata tajam,dan menghujani kami dengan batu. kami mencoba meredam tapi dengan ganasnya mereka terus menyerang. dan kami pun bertahan sebisa mungkin dengan peralatan seadanya. saya terkena lemparan batu 3 x,di kepala 1,di kaki kanan 2,saya bersembunyi di sungai,di pinggir semak2, disana saya mendengar suara sodara kita sedang merintih kesakitan,sedang di hajar beberapa orang, anggota kami yg tidak melawanpun terus menerus jadi amukan,masa yg menyerang. sambil pulang para penyerang bersalaman dengan polisi yg ada disana sambil tersenyum2"

 bentrok lagi dan lagi

 seringai dibalas senyuman

perusakan plang papan nama ahmadiyah

Mengecewakan. Sekarang saya jadi ragu, benarkah saya tinggal di Negara hukum yang menjunjung tinggi hak asasi manusia? Benarkah ini masih merupakan Negeri yang tersohor akan keramah-tamahannya?

For twice. The main obligation of the government is to protect its citizens regardless of their religion, isn't it? People has no right to say that certain belief is fallacious. Bahkan siapapun gabisa lah menilai bahwa agama tertentu salah atau benar.

Seriously, beliefs must be guaranteed by the government if violence against minority still continues.

Udahlah, masalah keagamaan ga usah dijadiin border line antar masyarakat. Ga usah ikut campur urusan keagamaan orang lain, apalagi sampai ngerusak bahkan mengecam dan meneror habis-habisan. It’s people’s private affairs with God!

Pada dasarnya, saya yakin, setiap agama tidak membenarkan adanya kekerasan apalagi pembunuhan atas dasar berbeda keyakinan. Jadi tolonglah, hargain perbedaan yang ada.
Religion/faith is a basic human right which we must not interfere.
Please. Respect others..

"Untukmu Agamamu, Untukku Agamaku"

Just Sayin About: Kasus Video Porno Ariel

Bicara tentang kasus video porno Ariel Peterpan yang lagi happening banget, gue mau sedikit ngasih opini sotoy gue nih hehehe. Emang sih gue ga ngerti banyak tentang hukum dan tatanannya, cuma ya ga ada salahnya kan gue sedikit gubris masalah ini hehe. Oke ada beberapa poin yang mau gue tarik dalem masalah ini, ga cuma tentang sidang pengadilan dan hukum yang memberatkannya, tapi juga aspek sosial dan kemasyarakatan dimana masyarakat kayanya juga punya andil besar dalem masalah ini

Jujur sebenernya gue ga pernah nganggep Ariel sebagai pihak yang bersalah, sebaliknya gue malah ngerasa Ariel itu pihak yang dirugikan, kenapa dirugikan? Karena bisa kita liat sendiri kan, video pribadi kepunyaan Ariel dicuri, disebarluaskan dan di blow up ke publik tanpa sepengetahuan dan seijin Ariel. Dan dengan beredarnya video itu jelas-jelas ngerusak image dan karirnya. Berarti pihak yang salah ya yang nyebarluasin video itu kan. Toh ariel ngelakuin itu atas dasar suka sama suka, dalem arti, pihak-pihak yang terkait dan ambil andil dalam video itu ngelakuin tanpa paksaan. Emang sih itu berlawanan sama nilai dan norma kita, tapi cara penanganannya itu agak sedikit berlebihan (malah berlebihan-banget). Sebelumnya ada kasus Rahma atau Sarah Azhari juga yang video syurnya ga sengaja ke-blow up ke publik, tapi toh ga ada yang ambil pusing sama masalah itu kan? Ga ada yang jadiin perkara sampai segininya.

Buat yang belom tau nih, Ariel divonis hukuman penjara 3 tahun 6 bulan dalam sidang putusan Pengadilan Negri Bandung, Senin 31 Januari kemarin. Selain itu, ia juga didenda Rp 250 juta subsidair 3 bulan kurungan jika ia ga bisa memenuhi denda itu. Putusan Majelis Hakim itu diketuai oleh Singgih Budhi Prakoso, sebenernya putusan ini lebih ringan dari tuntutan jaksa. Sebelumnya, Jaksa Penuntut Umum Kejaksaan Negri Bandung menuntut Ariel dijatuhi hukuman 5 tahun penjara ditambah denda Rp 250 juta subsidair 3 bulan kurungan. Ariel dianggap terbukti melanggar Pasal 29 UU Nomor 44 Tahun 2008 tentang pornografi, Pasal 27 UU Nomor 11 Tahun 2008 tentang informasi dan transaksi elektronik (ITE), dan Pasal 282 KUHP karena telah menyiarkan sesuatu dalam bentuk asusila.

Sementara ituuuu, Reza Rizaldy alias Redjoy yang telah terbukti menjadi pelaku dibalik tersebarnya video-video pribadi Ariel tersebut juga menjalani sidang vonis pada Senin 31 Januari 2011 lalu. Vonis nya malah lebih ringan dibanding Ariel. Ia hanya dijatuhi hukuman 2 tahun penjara dan denda Rp 250 juta subsidair 3 bulan kurungan. 

Don't you think its silly? Korban pencurian yang mengakibatkan pencemaran nama baik malah dihukum lebih lama daripada pencurinya. Emm yaudalah ya, mungkin ada pertimbangan-pertimbangan lain dari Majelis Hakim.

Adalagi nih, masyarakat yang antusiasnya berlebih buat mengecam Ariel. Bagus sih artinya masyarakat kita melek hukum dan peduli. Tapi mbok ya agak diperbaiki manner nya. Manner dalam arti, bukan gitu caranya unjuk rasa yang bener, bukan gitu caranya supaya didenger, bukan gitu caranya supaya keinginan kalian dipenuhi. Adalah ricuh-ricuh didepan gedung Pengadilan Negri Bandung gara-gara bentrok sama beberapa pendukung Ariel yang mendukung Ariel bebas. And not to mention it, yang paling mengecewakan buat gue adalah barisan-organisasi-masyarakat-berkalung-sorban yang selalu dapet sorotan kamera karena adanya ricuh-ricuh begini. (kayaknya bakalan ada posting sendiri nih buat ormas yang satu ini nantinya). Can you imagine, they broke other's car cuma karena oramg tersebut ngebela Ariel. For God's Sake, itu tindakan bodoh, konyol dan kampungan. banget.

Satu lagi, hehe masalah Gayus divonis 7 tahun, sedangkan Ariel 3,5 tahun. Hmm, seks yang urusan privat dan sifatnya pribadi = setengah korupsi? Korupsi yang jelas-jelas ngerugiin Negara dan masyarakat?? Gak salah nih? Sedangkan menurut gue, apa yang dilakuin Ariel itu ga ngerugiin siapa-siapa kecuali dia sendiri dan oknum-oknum yang terlibat di video itu. 

Hahaha, ya itu aja sih yang mau gue sampein, argumen yang didasarin atas kesotoyan anak umur 18 tahun hehe. Tapi ga ada yang salah kan sama sesi "just saying" ini? Hehe

For last, be brave to speak up what's on your mind. Don't be afraid.

Ciao, TIPANG!

Personality Tips

(http://b-splendid.blogspot.com)

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PERSONALITY


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Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.

Don’t over do. Keep your limits.

Don’t take yourself so seriously.. No one else does.

Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip..

Dream more while you are awake

Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..

Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.

Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.

No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

Smile and laugh more.

You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree…

When You Thought I Wasn't Looking

A message every adult should read because children are watching you and doing as you do, not as you say.


When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you hang my first painting on the refrigerator, and I immediately wanted to paint another one.

When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you feed a stray cat, and I learned that it was good to be kind to animals.

When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you make my favorite cake for me, and I learned that the little things can be the special things in life.

When you thought I wasn't looking I heard you say a prayer, and I knew that there is a God I could always talk to, and I learned to trust in Him.

When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick, and I learned that we all have to help take care of each other.

When you thought I wasn't looking I saw you take care of our house and everyone in it, and I learned we have to take care of what we are given.

When you thought I wasn't looking I saw how you handled your responsibilities, even when you didn't feel good, and I learned that I would have to be responsible when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn't looking I saw tears come from your eyes, and I learned that sometimes things hurt, but it's all right to cry.

When you thought I wasn't looking I saw that you cared, and I wanted to be everything that I could be.

When you thought I wasn't looking I learned most of life's lessons that I need to know to be a good and productive person when I grow up.

When you thought I wasn't looking I looked at you and wanted to say,'Thanks for all the things I saw when you thought I wasn't looking.'


Via (http://b-splendid.blogspot.com)

So Touchy

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.


copied from http://www.boardofwisdom.com/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JaYkwItyMFk

Songs I've Been Listening To Lately

have a nice day :)
TIPANG

Time To Grow

last night i tried but i couldn't sleep

thoughts of you were in my head

i was lonely and i  needed you next to me

life is harder since you left

i never meant to do you wrong

and now all is said and done

i hope you wont be gone too long

where do i go

what do i do

i cant deny
i still feel something

and girl i wish, you can say you feel the same

youve broken the bond

i gotta move on

but how do i end this lonely feeling?

youve gone,

im here, alone

i guess this time to grow

i try to speak but my words never catch the air

like you never knew i was there

take me back to the days
when you really care

can we mke love reappear

i cant go on, the roads too long

and now all is said and done

i cant go on if my heart's still from where im coming from

crying time is over

i know i cant control her feelings

if she won't return

then i guess i'll be a man and move on

make love better than what i did before

Time To Grow

Lemar ft. Justin

mungkin gue terlalu lebay atau lagu nya terlalu touchy

tapi tiap lagu ini keputer di playlist gue sebelum tidur,

i cant help my self for not crying

haha padahal gue ga ngrasa punya kenangan apa-apa deh ama ini lagu

yayaya whatever.

so this is it!

I CANT DENY I STILL FEEL SOMETHING

random things that i want to have right now!

1. NIKE DUNK - from NYLON magz
   

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2. Doc. Martens original

3. BOYS LIKE GIRLS CONCERT

4. NEW LAPTOP  (MY OLD ONE HAS BROKEN)

5. PAINT MY BEDROOM'S WALL

Just For Fun

actually, i have nothing to say, there's nothing 'fun' happen in my life lately. so im just going to post something that has no-point (pointless) -------ENJOY!

rules :

1. put your iTunes, windows mesia player, etc. on shuffle
2. for each question, press the next button to get you answer
3. you must write the song name down, no matter how silly it sounds
4. Have Fun!



SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
# The City Is At War - Cobra Starship hahahahahahahahahhaha



HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
# Dangerous and Sweet - Lenka yes i am nyakakkakak



WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
# Damn You Look Good and Im Drunk (scandalous) - Cobra Starship


HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
# Eh Eh (theres nothing else i can say) - Lady Gaga


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE PURPOSE?
# LISZTOMANIA - phoenix (apadah)



WHATS YOUR MOTTO?
# Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie HAHAHAHAHA PAS ABIS


WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
# Fuck You - Lily Allen HAHAHAHA jahat lu ah



WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
# Bring Me Down - Lenka aihhhhhh parah!



WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
# The Day You Went Away - M2M hem................



WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
# Smile - Lily Allen gaseru nih

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
# If I Were A Boy - Beyonce alah alah


WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
# LOVE DRUNK - Boys Like Girls mabuk cintaaa?


WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
# I Dont Love You - My Chemical Romance HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ko tolol sih



WHAT SONG WILL PLAYED AT YOUR FUNERAL?
# Shut Up And Let Me Go - The Ting Tings HUAHAUHAUHAUHUAH ngakak!



WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY AND INTEREST?
# I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry HAAAAAAAAAAA?



WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
# Someone Like You - Boys Like Girls pffffft



WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
# Cheated Hearts - Yeah Yeah Yeahs EH SUMPAH KAGA YAAA



WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
# Way Back Into Love - Drew Barrymore ft. Hugh Grant OH MY......................


WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
# When Did Your Heart Go Missing - Rooney

God whole plans and why it does to you

hei fellas!

my life has been very tiring this whole weeks.
beh idup gue berasa (lebih) berat daripada biasanya. (oke. gue lebay wkwk)

hem i wanna ask you guys about something,
lo pernah ga ngerasa jadi manusia paling apes
atau lift your hands and cry
then you'll say "how could this happen to me?!"
or may even, "kenapa Tuhan ngasih cobaan seberat ini buat gue? kenapa harus gue?!"

pernah kan? haha ah lebe lu pada ah wkwk
tapi bener kaaaaan?

hem apa?
gue tau darimana?

yaaaaaaaaa sebenernya sih ga lain dan ga bukan karena gue juga sering ngerasa kaya gitu HAHA
yeah guys, Ive been there too, who doesnt? I guess noone.

hei I know lots of stories about someone else's bad life.
people always think that their life is the worst life of all the people in the world.

but today. i just realized.
something that may forgotten.
listen to me. im just getting started.

okay honestly, gue tau gimana elo mungkin ngerasain sial yang ga berpenghabisan, ngerasa udah ga sanggup lagi dikasih cobaan yang menurut lo berat banget, ngerasa mendingan mati aja daripada mesti kaya gini, atau apalah!

yaelah. padahal kalo dipikir-pikir, paling apaan sih masalah kita?
patah hati?
putus cinta?
dikhianatin?
kehilangan sesuatu?
ngerasa sendiri?
dimusuhin?

ya. i know those things may hurt you so bad, I know how it hurts because Ive been there on your position (or even worse)
but HEY WAKE UP!

mungkin apa yg lo alamin itu ga ada apa-apanya dibandingin sama yg banyak dialamin sama orang diluar sana.
coba liat orang yg (maaf) cacat, yg ga punya orang tua atau malah ga pernah sempet ngerasain punya orang tua, yg ga punya tempat tinggal atau bahkan uang sepeserpun.
open up your eyes, guys! think about em!

as always, orang selalu ngeliat ke atas, which means selalu iri dan bahkan ga terima atas apa yg orang lain dapetin. and they think, "kenapa Tuhan ga adil and bla bla bla"
hellooooooo~ yg namanya adil itu ga selalu berarti harus sama rata kan?
apa yg baik menurut lo, belum tentu good enough menurut-Nya. get it?

guys, come on, start from today. kenapa ga kita liat ke bawah sekali-kali. terus pikir, how lucky we are! (call me naive for talking like this)

some of great quotation :
intan tidak dapat didapat tanpa gesekan
emas tidak dapat dimurnikan tanpa api
sesuatu yg lebih baik tidak dapat didapatkan tanpa rintangan dan tantangan


(oke. gue mungkin sok bijak ya haha. tapi coba pikir, bener ga g gue bilang?)

someday you'll understand about God's whole plans and why it does to you.
now, thank God for everything that He has given to you.

"everybody wants happiness, nobody wants pain. but you cant have a rainbow, without a little rain" someone ever said that :')

KEEP ROCKING
TIPANG

My Bash!

okay well, last friday I celebrated my bash! I seriously had so much FUN!
take a look at the photos. (sorry if those shits makes your comp lagging.) ENJOY!

some of the guests! thanks for coming guys :)

my birthday cake, wew popcorn! haha. and here it is, me as the birthday girl!
love those fireworks! it lifted my mood up! :)

thanks for looking.

i gotta go back to sleep!

night guys! TIPANG