11.30.2009

Friends Me Lovey


 
true friends dont come and go
they stay they listen
theyre there for you
during ups and downs



one thing that I really love about my bestfrinds
they could make me laugh out of loud
even somebody out thee has broke my heart hardly





one thing that I really love about school time
my school-mates!



when my friends see me cry
they dont say anything
they just make me foget what i feel


i still have a lotta best-man in my life
but yet i cant show em one by one here
the truth is, i love those guys that called friends.
i wont let anybody hurt them
and even if theyre wrong, i'll stand beside them
my remedy for all that has been hurting me
nothing works like you, guys

me love you all TIPANG

11.25.2009

photo-shoot!

it was Saturday, 21st of November
me, Rinda, Vira and Anti were doing something really great. yea so here are the results!
so all of the photos taken by : Anti.
sorry for the low-quality photos.










keep shining
TIPANG

quick report about my week

its been quite long since my last post. it seems like theres nothing fun happen in my life lately for over a week. so i have nothing to be posted.ni tried blogging. then i got stuck. then i saved it as a draft. LOL
hem one thing. you know what? my last FREE-DAY, SATURN-DAY and SUN-DAY (re : fri, sat, sun) went really wrong because of those fuckin try-out and pre-tests. cuih cuih!

oh also! i went to Bedah Kampus last sunday after finished doing the tests. although it was hot, and i stood up in a long line just for re-enter the spot, it was probably WORTH IT!

hem, oh ya, fyi. i just broke up last friday and trust me, we wont regret it
my last, this is awesome. you guys totally belong together, hehe hope you'll get your sweetest thing back on your hand and please. dont let it go for the second time :)

full of piece,
TIPANG

11.18.2009

HOPE


WHY DO WE NEVER KNOW
WHAT WE'VE GOT
'TILL IT'S GONE?!

11.17.2009

love? just sweet beginning and bitter ending

setuju gak sama judulnya? gue setuju banget loh. hem menurut gue ini topik yang sangat interesting, kenapa? karena actually udah berulang-ulang kali gue denger dan tau tentang cerita-cerita semacem&sejenis ini
awal-awal nya jadian atau suka sama orang ih emang nyenengiiin banget, but as the time goes by, ujng-ujung nya selalu aja ngeselin dan ga ngenakin. ya ga? ya kan?
kadang gue kesel juga, kenapa ya kebanyakan korban dari sakit ati dan sedih-sedihan tuh selalu cewe? apa mungkin karena cewe lebih pake perasaan daripada logika-nya? tapi tetep aja loh gue ga habis pikir. dih.
belakangan ini kayanya banyaak banget yang ngerasa sedih-sedih karena cowonya ninggalin lah, atau mantannya udah jadian lagi.
hem, perlu gue kasih contoh? Vira, sahabat gue yang gue sayaaang banget. mantannya yg sebenernya masih dia sayang udah jadian lagi beh. ada juga Hani, temen sekelas gue. mantannya yg dikira masi ngerasain hal yg sama kaya yg dia rasain ternyata udah deketin cewe lain. hem.dan masih banyak lagi deh, gue ampe lupa siapa aja.

so, tiap kali gue ngasih advice ke siapapun yang ngerasa down kaya gitu, gue selalu bilang, "AYO DONG MOVE-ON! TUNJUKIN KE COWO BRENGSEK ITU KALO LO BISA GA ADA DIA!" eeeh mereka selalu bilang, "GA BISA, TIPAAANG! LO KIRA GAMPANG APA?! LO MAH GA NGERASAIN SIH" nah loh, dia balik ngomel -_-

gini ya, gue ngomong kaya gitu bener-bener cuma mau nyadarin lo semua kalo elo itu nangisin sesuatu yg sebenernya ga pantes lo tangisin. idihh kalo gue jadi elo, mendingan gue nangisin apa kek yg lebih penting, zet. nah, kalo gue dibilang ga tau rasa-nya kaya apaaaa...................GUE TAU BANGET RASANYA KAYA GIMANA WOOOOY! bahkan mungkin yang gue rasain itu tiga kali lebih parah daripada yg elo semua rasain. ape? mau tau kenape? ah gue ogah ngebahasnya. haram.

nih ya, fakta yg harus lo tau tentang cowo brengsek yg lo puja-puja dan elo tangis-tangisin sampe sekarang.
buat elo yang ngerasa setelah putus mantan lo masih punya perasaan yg sama kaya yang lo pendem sekarang, beh. mending buang jauh-jauh eh pikiran kaya gitu daripada sakit ati sendiri.
didepan lo mungkin dia bisa aja sok sok ga bisa move on juga lah, sok sok masih sayang lah hadaaaaah, youd better stop hoping for them.
mau tau bukinya? nih. kasusnya Vira, didepan Vira, mantannya tuh masih bilang "aku syg bgt vir sm kamu blablabla" dan beberapa hari kemudian, di facebook cowo itu udah in a relationship with the other girl.si Hani juga gitu tuh, mantannya masih bilang, sayang-sayang telek ayam gitudeh, padahaaal JENG JENG JENG JENG ketauan deh dia deket sama cewe lain yg notabene adek kelasnya. banyak lah cerita-cerita sejenis kaya gini.

sumpadeh ga ada guna nya elo mikirin orang yg jelas-jelas ga ada guna nya buat dipikirin.
 okedeh gni, gue buka kartu biar lo sadar. gue dulu empat tahun jadian sama orang. EMPAT? ya empat tahun. lama kan? seiring berjalannya waktu nihye, gue makin makin dan makin....hem, sayang dan gue ngerasa dia juga ngerasa hal yg sama. tapi laluuu, akhirnya he dumped me, bilangnya sih gara-gara lg ga mau pacaran lah apa bullshit. tapi ternyata dia bosen sama gue, wtf. haha
terus akhirnya putus deh dan tiap kali gue tanya dia deket sama orang atau engga, dia selalu bilang "SUMPAH YA KAGA" dan gue pun percaya-percaya aja. dan, belakangan gue tau ternyata dia deketin cewe lain yg notabene adek kelas gue. itu tuh padahal  baru sekitar 3 minggu setelah gue putus haha, gilakan. gue sempet mikir, anjrit, 4 tahun itu ga lo anggep apa-apa sampe lo secepet itu dapet pengganti gue?! padahal semua yg lo mau udah gue kasih dan gue turutin! hahaha goblok. sama lah gue ngelakuin kaya apa yg lo semua lakuin. abis itu nangis-nangis lah, ngecekin fb, twitter, pm dll nya lah haha. padahal sebelum tau dia deket ama orang, tiap liat pm/tweet/status nya, gue selalu ngerasa itutuh buat gue. padahal ternyata? sampah.

terus mulai deh gue melewati masa masa yg gue anggap kelam bgt. kayanya mau senyum aja susah. i was just faking a smile deh pokoknya. terus gue ngerasa ga akan bisa lupa, ga akan bisa move on. crying on my bed tiap hari sebelum tidur ampe guling gua penuh ingus. terus gue sempet bilang ke temen gue, namanya awi. "wi gue ga bakalan lupa ini taruhan deh sama gue. satu satunya cara yang bisa bikin gue lupa kayanya cuma amnesia deh. kayanya gua mesti jedukin pala gua ke aspal deeeeeh" si awi nya ngakak ngakak aje. gila, percaya ga lo, gue selebay itu? untung ga gue lakuin ya Allah kalo engga gue pasti mati sia-sia. haha terus yaaaa gue liat tweet nya yg katanya seneng bgt kalo lagi sama gebetan baru nya itu. haha drop sih waktu itu. hem

terus abis itu gue ngapain? spending all my life stuck in yesterday? hell no! ya enggaklah. idup gue terlalu berarti buat terus nginget-nginget gituan. oke kejadian itu forgiven lah, but not forgotten. itu gue anggep sebagai lesson of life.gue delete semua yg gue anggep ga guna tuh. msn, bbm dan lain lainnya gue block,delete dan unfollow. so? look at me now. i've been there on your position but i moved on.

yayaya, lo pasti mau bilang, susah mau move on. ga bisa berhenti mikirin mantan lo lah. ga bisa lupain lah. eh bego, melek! (maaf ya gue kasar, abis gimana dong biar lo sadar) hem idup lo masih panjang! cowo juga gak cuma satu. lo ga akan bisa lupa kalolo terus-terusan mikir, "gue ga bisa move-on dan ga bisa lupaaa" wah wah. dan lo juga ga akan bisa kalo lo terus-terusan ngecek-ngecek semua yg berhubungan tentng tu orang. apalagi dengerin lagu mellow mulu. (percaya ga, gue delete semua lagu yg mellow-mellow di song list gue waktu itu) elo bisa kalo lo niat dan bener-bener mau! buktinya gue! and see, gue bisa!
so maybe thats all for today. if you want to ask or you need an advice, you can just go and come to me if you want to. or you can also send me an email on tiarapangestika@gmail.com or pangtipang@hotmail.com
idih najis gua uda kayak konsultan cinta HAHAHA


be brave, girls. you guys are just too worth it. you deserve more than this.
(maaf banget kalo postingan gue kali ini terkesan ngejelek-jelekin cowo. ini cuma berbagi pengalaman kok judulnya. dan perlu diinget! ga semua cowo kaya gini, ok?)

with full of joy, TIPANG

11.10.2009

i can not sleep because...........

23.59
i can not sleep.
theres just a thing or yea two i'd like to share.
first,
ADA YANG DANGDUTAN DI KAMPUNG BELAKANG BLOK GUEEEE masyaallah, pengen gua geplak pake sol sepatu emak gua tau gak lu pada! "mas boleh kocok, boleh aduk tapi jangan cintaku di aduk-aduk...........goyang lagi, massss" subhanallah, ampe gua murka, bukan cinta lu yg gua udek-udek! muke lu ekalian sini gua ubek-ubek!! ihhhhhhhhhhhhh
second.
gua kepikiran sesuatu deh aduaduaduuuuuh. nih ya gue tiba-tiba baca tweet seseorang kalo UAN empat bulan lagi. HAH? EMPAT BULAN?! oke the time is ticking so fast! oh my God! dan sdikitpun gue ga siap. yg lebih menyayat nyayat hati (ini apadah si goblok) simak ui apa kabar nya ini gue coooooy -___-"
gua mau membangkitkan semangat belajar kenapa susah amatzz z z.
oh iya, for your information, gue kemaren dipanggil Pak Oji, yg notabene wali kelas gue yg sangat peduli sama nasib anak kelas 3. dan dia bilang, "ini sudah berulang kali loh kamu melanggar peraturan! bapak itu ditegur sama pimpinan. banyak laporan dari guru-guru lain, kamu itu bulaak balik WC tiap pelajaran, sekalinya ke WC setengah jam. katanya mau masuk ke ui tapi begitu. sekali lagi begini bapak tidak bantu ya kamu buat ke perguruan negri, biarkan saja kalo tidak mau diurus"

JENG JENG JENG JEEEENG
dan yg paling parah dong, Pak Oji ngadu ke emak babeh gua. hem jadilah gua siap dikibar di tiang bendera depan rumah ama enyak babeh gua. astagfirulloooooh. gua uda deal perjanjian nih ama bokap nyokap gue, besok deh gua jabarin Undang Undang Dasar Anaknya Edi dan Titi. lagi ga mood ngetik ngetik.
udah ah mau bubuuu HAHAHA

bye reader, TIPANG

11.08.2009

mid-finger goes to you!

people like you are the reason
why we have
MIDDLE FINGERS!
 


11.07.2009

Time To Grow

last night i tried but i couldn't sleep
thoughts of you were in my head
i was lonely and i  needed you next to me
life is harder since you left
i never meant to do you wrong
and now all is said and done
i hope you wont be gone too long

where do i go
what do i do
i cant deny
i still feel something
and girl i wish, you can say you feel the same
youve broken the bond
i gotta move on
but how do i end this lonely feeling?
youve gone,
im here, alone
i guess this time to grow

i try to speak but my words never catch the air
like you never knew i was there
take me back to the days
when you really care
can we mke love reappear
i cant go on, the roads too long
and now all is said and done
i cant go on if my heart's still from where im coming from

crying time is over
i know i cant control her feelings
if she won't return
then i guess i'll be a man and move on
make love better than what i did before

Time To Grow
Lemar ft. Justin

mungkin gue terlalu lebay atau lagu nya terlalu touchy
tapi tiap lagu ini keputer di playlist gue sebelum tidur,
i cant help my self for not crying
haha padahal gue ga ngrasa punya kenangan apa-apa deh ama ini lagu
yayaya whatever.
so this is it!






I CANT DENY I STILL FEEL SOMETHING

im gonna leave my school in less than a year

yea, i hate to write this cheesy post. but something keep triping on my head and looks like i really need to share and write something on my blog.

first.
im so obsessed and i really wanna be a part of Universitas Indonesia (law faculty). but the problem is, i wasnt confident enough to beat those thousands of other participant. facing the truth, oh yeah, im stupid.
past a couple week ago, i went to stekpi for "try out simak ui" (fyi simak ui is the problems of ordinary matter in the test conducted in ui) and i just realized that im just NO-THING compared with other contestants.
and theeen, when i got home,i cried on my mom's shoulder. i told her, how i was depressed and i wasnt okay at all. i knew my mom would support me. thats what the mothers do to keep their childrens mood nd spirit up, right? well, back to the main topic!
phew!i have these dream that i really want to achieve, and when i know that i can achieve it, i have and i would achieve it no matter what. but the problem is, im not that confident enough to suggest on my own head that i can achieve it!!





second.
im so sad and im crying now hahaha im such a fool! i havent ready yet to face the truth that im going to lose and let my friends go to reach out their future. im so selfish, i know.
three years ago, i used to be happy and full of spirit to go to the school. why? to study? oh of course not. i was happy just for catching up and gossiping with my pals. and yea we skipped a lotta classes.
my girls are my special person that could lift my mood up when im down. they are always be on my side. those girls that i'd always wanna see, wanna meet, wanna cry with, wanna laugh, hang out with and wanna do everything with. yes they are.
its really hard for letting you all go to reach your dreams out.but this is it, i have to face it that we'll be on the different tracks, and yea our life must go on, with or without having each other as closer as today.
i will be here for you all guys. i'll be here to cheer and support you no matter what. no matter how far the distance will divide us.
hate to say this but i know there will be a word, goodbye. but hell no! we're still be a friends, no matter what. no matter even you'll get your new pal or even the best one.
i love you all and theres no words can describe.



P.S : the harder you try, the deeper shit you fall into
nite, TIPANG